Birthday
It's hard to believe I'm as old as I am sometimes. When I was a little kid, I used to wonder what I'd look like when I got older, e.g., "I wonder what I'll look like when I'm 18," etc.
Just like that, I'm 63-years-old.
I now wonder when I'm going to actually look old...to me. I also wonder if and when I'll start a fast decline. I'm already a tad achy and creaky, but I still feel very physically capable. I mean, I don't do the crazy shit I used to do in my youth, and I'm sure I don't run as fast as I used to, but I do feel comfortably able to do pretty much anything I need and want to do.
Feeling mortality as one ages is something everyone feels. I feel it some days more than others, and I'm not sure the addition of one more year to my life has made me feel any more mortal than I've felt before. What it has made me feel is appreciation - Appreciation for close friends, family, and life in general.